Widmung (Erich Fried)

Schreiben
um zu leben
wäre fast so arg
wie leben
um zu schreiben

aber etwas
noch schreiben
um es dann
dir
zeigen zu können

könnte einem fast
doch noch
leben helfen

at the time of writing

at the time of writing
i was angry, depressed, frustrated and alone

at the time of writing
i happened to feel particularly nasty

at the time of writing
i was ecstatic, marvelled at the universe
and celebrated the joys of human existence

at the time of writing
i was bored and lazy
unwilling to lift a finger to do anything
(and even putting down these lines really took an effort)

at the time of writing
i was in pain
horny
tearful
newly in love

at the time of writing
i was affected by the predicament of a friend

at the time of writing
i radiated benevolence towards all of god’s creatures

at the time of writing
i was worried about everything and hated everybody

at the time of writing
i was enthusiastic, words and images seemed to just pour onto the page

at the time of writing
i was considering getting a dog
becoming a musician
wearing a suit from now on
wondering
was i perhaps really gay
and
should i smoke more
or less?

so the question might arise if
at the time of writing
i am
one of the above
all of the above
none of the above
or
in states of mind altogether different from the above

the answer is
that
at the time of writing
i am all of these things and then some

the truth is
quite simply that
at the time of writing

i am writing

Im Atelier

Ich fange an zu glauben, dass ich sie mir ausgesucht habe, damit sie mir zeigt, wie man Künstler ist. Bei unserem ersten Treffen hatte wir schon über das Künstler-Sein gesprochen. Über das Bildnis des Dorian Gray. Wilde schreibt, sagte Jenny, dass viele schlechte Künstler interessante Menschen seien. Die Kreativität käme bei ihnen nicht in der Kunst zum Ausdruck, sie müssten sie leben. Wohingegen gute Künstler völlig uninteressante Menschen seien, die ganz in ihrer Kunst aufgingen.